Recovery Room for the Broken Lover

I am often confused by all the patience,

That I must endure,

All the heart ache and dizzy, tiring days.

Who I am, is not what is asked of me,

What they say I should be, I cannot be.

As I am strangled, snuffed out,

By those who hate themselves,

I am reminded that this is only for a short time,

A season of struggle and growth.

As I look beyond the ashes of what was once my burnt reflection,

I hear a distant call amidst the backdrop of the horizon,

One of hope to rescue us from agony,

One of peace to be set free from tears,

One of courage to break away from fears.

I cannot understand why there are lonely souls,

Bent on destroying others,

Determined to take someone with them,

To their grave of misery,

Perhaps that is a riddle,

We cannot solve for now,

Perhaps the reasons for such a black widow-type creature,

Shall never be solved,

And does not even matter at all.

Getting past the pain of those who hurt you,

Is hard enough,

Then the next level up,

Is to determine why we let fears and “what if’s”,

Prevent us from giving our all to those we do love,

And hold so dear to our souls.

The hardest question for me,

Is why is it that you can see love,

But you cannot grasp it?

The vision of it’s fulfillment is so close,

But unattainable,

Why do we long for it,

But limit what we are willing to risk?

And why is it that those who know how to say “ I love You”,

Are placed among those who cannot utter the words in return?

So truly, my most heartfelt pondering is on the unfulfilled dream of love.

Those who have true love do not qualify for this question,

But those who do not, or who have had it but lost it,

Are the ones I minister to now…

You understand what I am writing to you,

On this very night,

Is love only a legend?

Not motherly, sisterly, or brotherly love,

I have acquired all these things,

But true love,

Romeo and Juliet…would they have survived life together, if they had not died in vein?

Is Love Legend?

A dream within a dream?

A myth in agony?

Torment?

Or is it just a dream away?